Riddles

[ceitfianna]

I've recently started getting Uncle Rob's horoscope email as I keep reading them and they resonate with me so I'm posting the one for this week as it got me thinking.

GEMINI (May 21-June 20): "Do you know how to resolve an unresolvable
paradox?" asked a Facebook friend named Pi. He answered his own
question: "You figure out the 'error' in the initial premise or assumption."
And that's my prescription for you this week, Gemini. Do not be tempted
to bang your head against the wall so as to shake loose a non-existent
answer to the wrong question. Instead, stop yourself in the middle of your
angst and think: "What would be a more productive way to formulate the
riddle I need to untangle?"

This feels right in terms of a number of things. I was trying to print my resume to send out to the first job, I emailed them my stuff already and something was off in the header and footer of the first page so it won't print. Also I have two weeks to write a grant for my class and I'm fretting about getting some new clothes and a dress for my brother's wedding and not feeling happy with my body. Also last night I watched the first part of Deathly Hallows, which was wonderful but heartbreaking.

So I read this, took a deep breath and went for a walk. Ann Arbor is setting up for the Art Fair, which means most of the major downtown street are full of booths and people prepping booths. I lost myself in Welcome to Bordertown and felt more hopeful. Urban Fantasy offers the possibility of looking sideways to see beauty and magic that was always there, which is how I like to think about the world. I know I can do what I need to, write the grant, find a job, find a place where I can figure out how to feel happier with myself. The trick is to not get too caught up in any one question but enjoy the quest. I know I have this bad habit of over thinking things until I've tied myself in knots over what I can't control and ignored what I can.

If this first job doesn't pan out, its the first one and there is a need for librarians out there. I have a number of great links and places to find jobs and an amazing support system. Writing a grant is tricky but I'm doing well in the class and the program I've designed is fascinating. Now I just need to fit it inside the specific structure of a grant. While I'm not happy with where my body is at the moment, grad school isn't that healthy and I know what I like doing in terms of moving and cooking. Its a matter of finding the time to say and now I will find a dance class, a theater class, something to get me moving and feeling social and live more. In the meantime, I'll keep cooking interesting things and walking everywhere. This week I will get a new desk chair so my back stops hurting and a shredder to keep money safe and keep making my home. Since I'm in the body and place I'm in now and won't be here again, I'm going to enjoy it as much as I can and see Harry Potter this week too. I can't believe part 1 ends there.

Comments

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

I'm of the belief that you can't fix everything all at once and trying to do so will just make things more complicated than need be. It sounds like once you took a step back, you had some very simple ideas for ways to improve what you wanted - I'll keep cooking interesting things and walking everywhere. This week I will get a new desk chair so my back stops hurting and a shredder to keep money safe and keep making my home.

My sister and I (both geminis) are worrying over things that are a one-step-at-a-time process and we both just need to take a deep breath about it, because we actually have a decent formulated plan in place.

[ceitfianna]

Yes, if things feel complicated than they don't feel doable. Yay Geminis!

We sometimes do far too many things at once but we get them done.