I want to like my Mondays again.

I have to make a podcast booktalk for my children's literature class but the tech and I just aren't getting along. I made a recording last night that I was decently happy with but then I haven't been able to open it up again to play it back.

So I've been trying to rerecord it but that hasn't been working. I'm not going to my 1 oclock class because I just want to get this stupid thing done.

I know its supposed to be a fun and interesting thing to do but so far all I want to do is throw Audacity out a window but I can't since its a program.

ETA: And its done and I found out how I did on my illustrator presentation, 77 out of 100. I hate this since I like the class but the last two weeks, I just seem to be not doing my best even in the class I like.

More on Mondays and First Semesters

I think I've definitely hit that middle of semester oh god why am I doing this feeling? These past two assignments for my children's literature class that I wanted to look forward to have instead had me all but crying because I'm doing stuff that's just okay. Also there are all these people that I want to get in contact with to make connections and other things to do but finding energy is hard. I feel like I'm scattered all over the place though I know this is what I want to be doing.

I got my grade on my illustrator presentation and its a C-B kind of range which fits how I felt about it when I did it, its just hard. Part of why that was so hard is that I did find the stuff I learned interesting but we had a completely specific format of power point to work in which made me feel trapped. I don't like power point, that's really not a secret and I get that she was trying to make us feel comfortable by saying this is exactly what you have to do. Just in the end, its something I"m not good at. I like presenting and talking but I'm much more of a storyteller than anything else.

Then for the booktalk, I've been writing this in my head since last week when I thought it was due but just recorded it last night. Though as most of crackchat knows, technology and I didn't get along. So I skipped by 1 pm class and finally got something recorded and done. Its not fancy, its just me talking but its there.

I'm going to do better on my paper for her since I do really enjoy the class and she likes my LibraryThing stuff, I just hate this feeling of god, can't I even do well in the class I like. I need to figure out something to do tonight and over the next few days that will make me happy and remind me that I can do this. I don't know what that will be yet? Any thoughts or suggestions from others who have survived graduate school or just slumps?

A Meme

Class went pretty well though I ended up apologizing for sucking with tech stuff, she kind of went I knew you'd figure it out, first graders do. That wasn't too helpful but I liked the class, I always do and some people are so good at power point presentations, its just crazy.

Also I'm feeling better, I've had some chocolate and I have tea and I'm watching Castle. I'll get through this sag and I know this is the right program for me and I'll figure out how to fit the expectations.

Now from walksbyherself a fun little drabble meme that I think will be good since I'm in the mood to write tonight.

Pick a pairing from my fandoms (including whatever RP 'verse you care to throw at me), and come up with a location and/or situation, and I will write you between 50 and 250 words about the kiss that happened in that context.