More on Mondays and First Semesters
Nov. 9th, 2009 02:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ceitfiannaI think I've definitely hit that middle of semester oh god why am I doing this feeling? These past two assignments for my children's literature class that I wanted to look forward to have instead had me all but crying because I'm doing stuff that's just okay. Also there are all these people that I want to get in contact with to make connections and other things to do but finding energy is hard. I feel like I'm scattered all over the place though I know this is what I want to be doing.
I got my grade on my illustrator presentation and its a C-B kind of range which fits how I felt about it when I did it, its just hard. Part of why that was so hard is that I did find the stuff I learned interesting but we had a completely specific format of power point to work in which made me feel trapped. I don't like power point, that's really not a secret and I get that she was trying to make us feel comfortable by saying this is exactly what you have to do. Just in the end, its something I"m not good at. I like presenting and talking but I'm much more of a storyteller than anything else.
Then for the booktalk, I've been writing this in my head since last week when I thought it was due but just recorded it last night. Though as most of crackchat knows, technology and I didn't get along. So I skipped by 1 pm class and finally got something recorded and done. Its not fancy, its just me talking but its there.
I'm going to do better on my paper for her since I do really enjoy the class and she likes my LibraryThing stuff, I just hate this feeling of god, can't I even do well in the class I like. I need to figure out something to do tonight and over the next few days that will make me happy and remind me that I can do this. I don't know what that will be yet? Any thoughts or suggestions from others who have survived graduate school or just slumps?
I got my grade on my illustrator presentation and its a C-B kind of range which fits how I felt about it when I did it, its just hard. Part of why that was so hard is that I did find the stuff I learned interesting but we had a completely specific format of power point to work in which made me feel trapped. I don't like power point, that's really not a secret and I get that she was trying to make us feel comfortable by saying this is exactly what you have to do. Just in the end, its something I"m not good at. I like presenting and talking but I'm much more of a storyteller than anything else.
Then for the booktalk, I've been writing this in my head since last week when I thought it was due but just recorded it last night. Though as most of crackchat knows, technology and I didn't get along. So I skipped by 1 pm class and finally got something recorded and done. Its not fancy, its just me talking but its there.
I'm going to do better on my paper for her since I do really enjoy the class and she likes my LibraryThing stuff, I just hate this feeling of god, can't I even do well in the class I like. I need to figure out something to do tonight and over the next few days that will make me happy and remind me that I can do this. I don't know what that will be yet? Any thoughts or suggestions from others who have survived graduate school or just slumps?
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Date: 2009-11-10 12:14 am (UTC)Gah, I remember that mid-semester feeling all too well. Also that wish to network more, but just not having the time or energy to make it happen. If it's any consolation, I think that happens to a lot of people there?
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Date: 2009-11-10 02:11 am (UTC)