Not a good moment.

[ceitfianna]

I hate this, my Mom without meaning to got me crying by asking why my pants looked so tight. I know I've put on weight and I lose a bit but then it comes back and I've been feeling far too aware of it lately. We talked about it and maybe I should go back to working more on losing weight in the midst of the job stuff but I feel pulled lots of ways and I don't want my weight to be something else to pull me down if it doesn't go away.

God, I'd just like one of these things I've sent out there to come back hopeful, the Lewes public library or one of the jobs, just some sign that I'm putting good stuff out there.

I was going to wait to work on my weight until I was in my own place where that could be part of setting myself up, being able to walk to a grocery store and that kind of thing.

Now I just don't know, maybe I should be working more on that. I just feel lost and falling apart and I really hate it.

Comments

[herdivineshadow]

*hug*

Get some bigger trousers for the when you're feeling hefty days, eat sensibly and do things like parking a little further away than where you might so you can walk a little further.

At the same time, don't worry about it when you have bigger things on your mind. If eating something that might be on the "I shouldn't" list, will make you feel better when you need it then do it and then not worry about it.

Sorting out your weight is one of those things that can be put aside for a sunny day. I know for me, sometimes the best thing to do is just to maintain where I am for a while - not getting heavier or lighter. At the moment, I'm in a maintaining phase and I suspect I will be for a while but at some point I will get to a place where I can think, yeah, time to lose some weight.

[ceitfianna]

Thanks and I do have pants like that, still kind of breaking these in.

I have been trying to do the sensible stuff too and I just put my resume up on monster.com which helps a little bit.

[herdivineshadow]

CVs on the internet = good way to get a job.

Most definitely. And it makes it a heck of a lot easier to apply for a bazillion things at once by frantically clicking buttons. I <3 it.

[ceitfianna]

That's what I've been doing just hadn't done this one yet, but now its out there.

[catnona.livejournal.com]

It's such a hard thing to do, especially when trying to find work and getting yourself into a routine where you can focus on yourself.

Been there so many times, I realised that becoming happy with who I am and enjoying my life, despite all the crap, is more important than body image...you know how big I am....and yes, I know I too need to loose weight....it will be a work in progress,no doubtedly with many fall backs.

Just remember that you are a bubbly, friendly, sweet person with much to offer people.

HUGS

[ceitfianna]

*hugs a lot* Thank you, I think I'm just rather on the edge emotionally and so got surprised.

Also I finally got your presents in the mail and I hope they make you smile and that your wedding is wonderful.

You and Paul just helped me through some rough times in Wellington and reminded me that I wasn't alone.

[yakalskovich]

I don't normally speak about these things, but I can't let you -- you!! -- beat yourself up about that, ah, well, crap.

So, I'll toss you a link.

You can go there, poke around, ponder a bit, surf on, discover, if you want to. That's all.-

[ceitfianna]

Thank you.

[bigfluffball.livejournal.com]

*just hugs lots*

[ceitfianna]

I'm feeling better now but thank you so much.