ceitfianna: (journey's end)
I just had a conversation with my parents about how its easier to break this lease than the one in Ann Arbor since this area of Michigan has a lot of people pass through. To say aloud, I don't want to be in Michigan anymore, especially not this part of Michigan feels amazing. A huge weight is off me as I start thinking about moving east again, working at the library in Lewes as I search for a job in the part of the country I actually want to be in.

Chances to hang out with friends who live in Maryland and Virgina and on the east coast instead of feeling stuck in limbo out here in Michigan. I don't know how quickly any of this will happen. I'm going to run some errands and on my way back stop in at the rental office to see how tricky it is to end the lease early. I think as long as I give thirty days notice, I should be okay since the lease is far kinder than the one in Ann Arbor where housing was tougher to find. I also realized that yesterday was a month since the last day of school. Time feels so out of joint for me since it hasn't been that long, but my life is in a strange spot.

Oh and I found another job to apply for, a teen librarian position in Arizona. I'm happy to move again for a job, but next time I'm going to be more prepared. If a job wants me, I'd like their help in settling in. That doesn't have to be money just advice and some care.

The next step starts to feel closer and more hopeful. Since its Friday and FicFriday on Twitter has been quiet due to the holiday weekend, I'll take prompts here and on Twitter. Just @ me over there.

Leave me a prompt and I'll write you a one to two sentence fic, possibly more but I try to keep it short to work with the Twitter part.

ETA: It looks like this move will be simpler than my other one. Next part is to contact the movers and find out their dates, then get back to the rental company.
ceitfianna: (Inception-look sideways)
I have thoughts on the goodbye lunch, the last day of school and other things that I want to get into proper shape. That so far hasn't happened today instead I spent I think almost three hours talking with the lower school librarian, C, who is probably the best friend I've made at my school this year.

I have lots of things that I will end up writing but for now I'm going to share the next bit of a fic that keeps coming in spurts for me. The newest bit has happened to go now so I'm sharing it. This is Charles in Nolanverse Gotham with [personal profile] adiva_calandia's rule 63 Bryce Nolan with guest appearances by [personal profile] walksbyherself's OC Kite. I still don't know what the final shape of this story will be since I started writing it to see if I could make them work romantically. That part is happening just slowly and I'm sharing it as its one of those fics that I like sharing as it grows. Part one is here, part two is here and this is part three for now. Someday it will all come together.

Gotham had an intensity to it that was more than what he was used to and he had yet to find out the reason for it, but he was searching. )
ceitfianna: (Dean time rambles on)
My original plan for today was to go out somewhere either to the DIA or the Detroit Zoo, but instead I slept in wonderfully long and late. It turns out that I needed it and then I went and enjoyed a nice lunch. I opened up my package from my parents which had homemade chocolate-hazelnut brownies, which are delicious, lovely earrings with a circle of red and blue glass and a pile of Agatha Christie mysteries. One of them is a Poirot, which I recently bought for myself to reread as I was having a kind of craving for it. I love that we think that much alike. Early, my mother also sent me a Lush gift card which I haven't used yet but have ideas for.

Tomorrow if the weather's nice, I will head out to the zoo and then next week will be odd but good. None of the last days are actually full days so Friday really was my last full day of school. It was a nice day, chaotic and fun and it struck me how I've made an impression, the head of maintenance just kept talking to me about the history of the school and his experiences. And after work when I was eating a sandwich, two high school kids saw me and checked in. I think that might have been because one I was gone for so long and two because my eyes watering and contacts being horrible made it seem like I might have been crying. Other people checked in with me too, it was a good day. I'll probably have more feelings as time goes on but for now, I can look back at this year and be thankful for what I've learned and the trust put in me by the kids and others at the school. Wherever I go next, I'm to quote Wicked changed for good.

I realized due to heading off on my roadtrip that I never got around to writing up last Friday's fics and I ended up doing some this Friday as well. Its going to be a long list.

Twitter Fics )
ceitfianna: (Charles+Raven-here to hold you)
I found this on [profile] seananmcguire's tumblr and it felt right on this day full of moments of connections. I told one of my regulars who was asking about getting headphone splitters for the computers that I wouldn't be at the school next year, he whined and leaned his head on my shoulder, seventh grader for context. It just about broke my heart, I want to spend my life working with kids and teachers making connections.

Naomi Shihab Nye (b. 1952), “Wandering Around an Albuquerque Airport Terminal.”

After learning my flight was detained 4 hours,
I heard the announcement:
If anyone in the vicinity of gate 4-A understands any Arabic,
Please come to the gate immediately.

Well—one pauses these days. Gate 4-A was my own gate. I went there.
An older woman in full traditional Palestinian dress,
Just like my grandma wore, was crumpled to the floor, wailing loudly.
Help, said the flight service person. Talk to her. What is her
Problem? we told her the flight was going to be four hours late and she
Did this.

I put my arm around her and spoke to her haltingly.
Shu dow-a, shu- biduck habibti, stani stani schway, min fadlick,
Sho bit se-wee?

The minute she heard any words she knew—however poorly used—
She stopped crying.

She thought our flight had been canceled entirely.
She needed to be in El Paso for some major medical treatment the
Following day. I said no, no, we’re fine, you’ll get there, just late,

Who is picking you up? Let’s call him and tell him.
We called her son and I spoke with him in English.
I told him I would stay with his mother till we got on the plane and
Would ride next to her—Southwest.

She talked to him. Then we called her other sons just for the fun of it.

Then we called my dad and he and she spoke for a while in Arabic and
Found out of course they had ten shared friends.

Then I thought just for the heck of it why not call some Palestinian
Poets I know and let them chat with her. This all took up about 2 hours.

She was laughing a lot by then. Telling about her life. Answering

She had pulled a sack of homemade mamool cookies—little powdered
Sugar crumbly mounds stuffed with dates and nuts—out of her bag—
And was offering them to all the women at the gate.

To my amazement, not a single woman declined one. It was like a
Sacrament. The traveler from Argentina, the traveler from California,
The lovely woman from Laredo—we were all covered with the same
Powdered sugar. And smiling. There are no better cookies.

And then the airline broke out the free beverages from huge coolers—
Non-alcoholic—and the two little girls for our flight, one African
American, one Mexican American—ran around serving us all apple juice
And lemonade and they were covered with powdered sugar too.

And I noticed my new best friend—by now we were holding hands—
Had a potted plant poking out of her bag, some medicinal thing,

With green furry leaves. Such an old country traveling tradition. Always
Carry a plant. Always stay rooted to somewhere.

And I looked around that gate of late and weary ones and thought,
This is the world I want to live in. The shared world.

Not a single person in this gate—once the crying of confusion stopped
—has seemed apprehensive about any other person.

They took the cookies. I wanted to hug all those other women too.
This can still happen anywhere.

Not everything is lost.
ceitfianna: (dream of a fantail)
Tonight I'm going to have Demeter bartend at [community profile] milliways_bar in honor of Felix Gaeta and the fact that I don't have to wake up terribly early tomorrow. I'm taking my car in for maintenance at 9:30 and then conferences don't even start until 2 pm, then at noon on Thursday.

I actually will have time to sleep and eat and read since I started My Life in France by Julia Child yesterday and love it. I want to be more like her, she was brave and daring with such a joy in how she lived her life.

I've decided to really embrace my latest horoscope from Uncle Rob:

GEMINI (May 21-June 20): The coming week will be an excellent time to
wash dishes, clean bathrooms, scrub floors, vacuum carpets, wash
windows, do laundry, and clean the refrigerator. The more drudge work
you do, the better you'll feel. APRIL FOOL! I lied. The truth is, you now
have astrological license to minimize your participation in boring tasks like
the ones I named. It's high time for you to seek out the most interesting
work and play possible.

I adore that phrase play possible and plan on trying to connect with people and write just be me for the break. My body's been feeling worn out and unhealthy of late, so there are going to be walks, because Spring is here, no matter the temperature.

Also since [personal profile] dodger_sister was curious about it and I'm proud of what I have, here's a snippet of my [community profile] queer_fest story.

A good moment )
ceitfianna: (pooka illustration)
Today I started writing a story from a queer fest prompt because it got into my head about Charles and being bi. If you're looking for story ideas or a new place to write, go look at what's going on. They're open for new prompts until March 15th and stories aren't due until May and June. I've never written for them before but I went to look and the ideas started happening.

And another part of feeling like my creativity is active, I finally got Tiwa her icons back and she and a AU!Hogwarts' Will are in the sandboxes. I'd love some threads guys as I've missed playing these two.

Life is feeling good and a little odd. My monthly Sci-Fi Fantasy book club makes me incredibly happy even though I've yet to read the books for it. This week I did manage to buy the book but not read it. The people in the book club are creative, fascinating and remind me of being in crackchat, where the conversation bounces in strange ways. It ended up making me want to write more Charles as the book was Arthur C. Clarke's Childhood's End, so we discussed what was going on for people in the '50s and '60s. I ended up recommending Lilek's and stayed until about 10:30, I would have stayed later but I was tired and wanted some wine. I feel like I'm slowly creating a social life for myself here.

Work ended on Friday with a major bump as the school servers went down and suddenly there was no internet. One of the best compliments I've ever gotten for the job I do is how many kids stayed after school even with no internet. One kid used his phone as a tether for others, but overall, they were happy to just be in the library.

FicFriday ended up being partially here and also on Twitter again. Being on my journal works better for me as I'm working, but not everyone has the same issues. My dreamwidth fills are here.
Twitter writing )
ceitfianna: (Dean time rambles on)
Life is feeling nice. I've got a plan for heading back to work. I'm going to do my best, they've given me goals, I'll reach them and keep on doing what I think the library needs as well.

Then at the end of March, I get a slightly longer break in which I hope to try and see people and get to visit NYC. My visit with [personal profile] dodger_sister was wonderful, lots of lazing about. I'm now someone that her cats know, which makes me incredibly happy. Then I came home to a package of goodies from [personal profile] ladyoflorien and my place, it feels nice to have another night to rest and prepare myself before going back to work.

I introduced her to Becoming Jane which prompted me to finally finish a fix-it fic for it as well as some EPs. I got to thread Tom and Jane with [personal profile] dynastessa again and it was painful and lovely. Now I just need someone to beta it for me. Anyone up for betaing a post-canon Becoming Jane fic, its only about 1700 words?

I've also been catching up on Boardwalk Empire and I love it. My free HBO thing ran out but while I had it, I happened to watch a good chunk on the third season. I'll be honest, the first reason I stayed watching was Charlie Cox being Irish and dangerous, then the story pulled me in. I'm in the midst of seeing the second season and need to get the music and possibly buy the DVDs. I could play Margaret Thompson as her journey is painful but she keeps finding a way.

This meme is floating around and I love the idea of it. Last seen at [personal profile] ashen_key:

Tell me about stories you think I should write. I mean, if you could sit me down for a day or whatever and say, "Ok, I want you to write this story for me," what would that story be?

I'm not actually promising to *write* any of these, mind you, but it's fun anyway. And who knows if I'll be inspired!

Yesterday was a good FicFriday with a theme of horses for the millirodeo.
Horses on Twitter )


Feb. 20th, 2013 11:38 pm
ceitfianna: (Inception-look sideways)
I have really needed a vacation though my worries keep creeping in. Last night I dreamed that I was sort of like Lou from The Young Riders but also mixed up in a performance for something. There was lots of rushing about and trying to get things done, but I have been sleeping a lot.

Today I got out of the house to spend some time at a cafe and do some shopping, I love my friend but cabin fever can creep up on me quickly. In some nice news, through my work email, there are these really nice emails from other people there that remind me that I am valued and seen. Its just not by those in charge, but I am.

Now I don't usually post snippets but my writing at this point seems to be in bursts. Things get started and go so far then stop and start on me. Its just how I am now with life, I don't feel like I've figured out how to live this life I currently have.

This is a complete part of something that I hope will be bigger, but I want to share it with those who inspired it. Now over in [community profile] panfandomsandbox, [personal profile] adiva_calandia plays this rule 63 Nolanverse Batman, Bryce Wayne who is amazing. She and Charles have this complicated, prickly and frankly weird relationship that I love and need to have at least one fic where they sleep with each other. So I decided to start a fic with that in mind, but it took a sharp right turn as soon as I started.

I will write them together just once, they are not meant for romance but I can see them both hurting and needing. This is a long way of saying that I wrote something with the two of them and a guest appearance by [personal profile] walksbyherself's Kite that I really want to share. I think this will end up having more, it feels like a story of snapshots while other fic will come along.

The current title is from The Wallflowers new album and feels far too apt for them.
Love is a country best crossed when you're young. )
ceitfianna: (Tiwa playful)
My sleep schedule is off to a bad start this week, because I didn't give myself enough lead up to adjust after lots of sleeping this weekend. I think I'm still not fully healthy either, but my guess is that I won't be until I finish this year. Working at a school is tough on anyone's immune system and mine's never been the best. I know what I need to correct to take better care of myself, eating consistently and sticking with going to bed at a decent hour.

Last night, I was just silly as I started the newest Vorkosigan book over dinner and went oh yes. Ivan has always been one of my favorites, because I understand him and I love Tej and this book. I meant to sleep early but didn't want to wait until after work to read more, so stayed up reading then overslept. Bujold is one of those authors like Pratchett where I can't read just one chapter. Ivan is hitting all these feelings for me of figuring out your expectations versus others and holding onto happiness as well as making it for yourself. Also how key it is to define your life for yourself, that's a theme that runs through all the Vorkosigan books.

Then there was good RP and I ended up writing a fic for the Multifandom Women Comment ficathon: I don't look back. The Dark Knight Rises, Selina/Bruce, PG for violence. Later today I'll post it up on Ao3.

I'm lucky that my mornings are flexible and that people at work are understanding, I just hate starting off late. Tonight I plan on going to bed early and taking better care of myself as tomorrow is going to be long. I'm teaching research partly in French and have a meeting at the other campus. Next week is my school's Spirit Week, which I have no idea what to expect though yesterday did work for me. Then I get break, I'd really forgotten how broken apart a school's schedule can be. I was able to sort out a number of things that I had been fretting over and had a lot of good reactions, one negative that balanced out. I also discovered a great librarian group that makes me happy as I've been needing more ways to connect with librarians.
ceitfianna: (Yuletide Tumnus)
I'm using this icon because of Tumnus and snow not yuletide as it captures how I've felt this weekend, tucked at home as it snows outside. The snow will let up and then come back and sometimes be rain all this week, which has made it hard to find the energy to do much. The sun briefly came out on Friday, but other than that, its been cloudy. As I've also been fighting off feeling sick, I've slept a lot this weekend and realized I really needed it. I didn't work on Friday as I decided a day of rest would help me more than trying to push through the day. Going by just how much I've been sleeping, I think this was the right idea. I'm still a little tired today, but not as out of it as I felt last week.

Though on Friday, I did go out to a book club meeting from meetup.com that was wonderful. I think I've started to find my people in this area, even though I hadn't read the book, the conversation was wonderful. We talked about gaming, fantasy and all sorts of fascinating stuff. One of the people in group even knows one of my favorite teachers from Michigan. There was also an adorable and big black dog who decided he liked me and let me give him all sorts of scritches. I'm planning on using meetup to try and find a dance group as the combination of being social and active works well for me.

Since I stayed in yesterday due to the snow falling, I watched up to episode 10 of Capital Scandal and wow, all the feelings for that show. I love all of it, the depth of the characters, the beautiful setting and music and the humor that slips its way in.

Today I went out into the world and used the time to finish reading City of Dark Magic by Magnus Flyte, which is a book I wanted to like more than I did. Its a book that could easily be called a genre bender or crosser as it had fantasy, mystery and romance, sadly the balance wasn't always right in it. The two point of view characters were both a little too brilliant and the feel of the story would veer rather suddenly from alchemy and history to sex against statues. Its the kind of book that I would enjoy reading on a long plane or train ride where I could just sink into it and read it in one gulp, but reading it in stops and starts made me not enjoy it as much. As I would come out of it and be aware of how it didn't all fit together.

Life is going along steadily at work, I still feel like I'm out of some loops but I've got a chance to discuss my status report, which I hope will be helpful. Also I had an amazing connection with a new teacher that made me feel like I know what I'm doing. I know that I haven't spoken out as much as I need to and I'm going to work on that. They hired me because they think I can do this job and I am doing it and will keep improving. Also I have a chance to propose some classes for next year, which will get me more involved and be exciting. I finally have a Michigan license and this month paid off the last of my smaller loan from the University of Michigan, which is a great feeling. I have a break coming up in the third week of February, which I plan on going to Jackson and having some nice days of watching stuff. I also have a break in the first week of April and I'll be joining them for an opera in NYC on the fourth. If its possible, I would love to try and connect with anyone in New York for coffee or lunch or something. There's more flexibility in terms of going rather than leaving so Wednesday or Thursday. I miss you guys a lot and want to try and reconnect.

On Friday, FicFriday was interesting. I like this new way of giving prompts and then people have the option of deciding which character or world to write them for.
Twitter fiction )
ceitfianna: (paper butterfly)
My status report is almost done, its been winnowed and organized though it was really good to just write down some of the things that frustrated me. My body is feeling rather worn out as my period hit hard last night, but I'll manage. Before it hit too much, I was able to do some decorating around my apartment, some frames I have don't fit what I had wanted them to, but I'll make things work. I shared pictures on Twitter and will do a picture post on here later.

I'm a little worried about the winter storm that headed this way, I think its named Lulu, which isn't the most promising of names. This coming week and the next will be full and while I love the idea of being able to curl up in bed, it would just make things more confusing.

But as my school really loves breaks, I've got one in the middle of February, which is going to be one with a good bit of falling over then another in April. It sounds like April will see me on the East Coast and possibly going to an opera with my parents during the first week of April. That hasn't been set in stone yet, but if it happens, I might be around for some sort of brief meet up with people in New York. I miss everyone there.

Something else I have coming up is I signed up for a book club on meetup about fantasy, sci-fi literature. I don't have time to read the book as the meeting's this Friday, but its a way to get myself out there. I'm planning on also trying to find some sort of dance group and maybe see about grabbing coffee or something with the teacher who stopped by last Friday. I don't know if I have a crush on him or if he just makes me feel connected but I'm going to be brave and keep reaching out. Writing up this report has shown me how I've fallen into observer mode and don't rock the boat as the new person, but for this job to work and for me to be happy, I need to keep pushing myself out there. I can still slowly change the community while speaking up, people have listened to me and will keep listening.

One reason I love fandom and online writing communities is that as I've been writing more in different fandoms and for people I don't know, I find more confidence throughout my life. All the stories I wrote for the Porn Battle and the positive reaction they received have helped me as I wrote up this status report.

This was also a lovely week for Fic Friday with trying some different things, prompts not attached to a specific character. I liked this challenge and want to try it again. Its not perfect but presents another way of thinking about what's being written.

140CharFics )

In my head

Jan. 24th, 2013 08:18 pm
ceitfianna: (Charles/Erik-remake the world)
I went back to work after a nice long break, which I spent writing. My semester status report is at the moment slightly organized and feeling good to have a strong start on. There's something powerful about writing down what's working and what isn't working, though it does get me a bit too much in my own head. I might end up shifting some of the access on this journal, but one of the issues I'm writing about is I honestly have no idea how online many people are at work. I'd like to do a survey about it as schoolwide social media use is I think fairly new. Also I hope to teach a class about online life and I want to talk to students about boundaries and privacy and other issues. For the moment, its not a major concern for me, I've changed my Twitter habits during the work day, which was the only thing mentioned.

At some point, I'm going to write a librarian blog entry about some of these issues. I miss having that self-reflection but after the fairly confused, apathetic response my previous entry got at work, I stopped. Communication within and outside of where I work is complicated and not something that's easy to parse out, but I'll find my way through. At the moment, my mother has my draft to look through and edit, I didn't give the head of school an exact date in which I would hand it in as I told him I want it to be right. I just need to remember that and focus on getting the words and ideas there since I have a lot to say and my thoughts and experiences matter.

In terms of other writing, my inspiration has been strong this week, though it feels like its fled for tonight. For the first time I've been writing for the Porn Battle and so far have four stories, most of them new fandoms and pairings for me. The Hades/Persephone one has explicit sex as does the Red/Claudia, Eponine/Enjolras has a kiss and Raj/Quentin has heavy petting.

Light underground, Hades/Persephone, Greek Mythology.
Red Streak, Red Riding Hood|Ruby/Claudia Donovan, Warehouse 13/Once Upon a Time crossover
La Marianne, Enjolras/Eponine, Les Miserables (2012)
Not actually petting, Raj/Quentin, Toby Daye books

Worn down

Jan. 19th, 2013 04:23 pm
ceitfianna: (Charles+Raven-here to hold you)
Last night before I went to bed, I ended up catching The Descent on television, which was a bad idea. Its a very well done horror movie but hooks into a lot of my fears of being trapped under water and underground. That scene in the first Pirates movie where Will Turner is trapped in the ship, that bothered me a huge amount. So I bought a romance novel that was on sale as an ebook and read it since one thing I really like about romance novels is they're shorter than others. It was helpful, The Devil's Delilah by Loretta Chase, there were some things I had issues with but overall I really liked it. The hero was bookish and the heroine was not terribly proper, which was a nice change of the normal tropes and its from Chase's backlist so I might investigate more of her stuff.

Either way, I finally fell asleep at the point where night was starting to turn into morning and woke up in the early afternoon. What sucks is I woke up sore, I've felt like I've been skirting the edges of being sick all week and I'm still doing it. Due to my school being odd, I have off until Thursday and plan on resting. I would also like to actually put stuff up on my walls and take some pictures of my place to post them.

One thing I'm doing during this break is trying to put together a semester status report for the head of school and I want to include some pictures I have on my camera. If I can upload all the pictures on it then I can finally do a proper picture post of this is where I live for everyone as well as this is where I work. Just before I do that, I want to actually hang things on the wall.

I feel like there was something else I was going to write about but now I've forgotten it. After work, I did some nice FicFriday stories and here they are.

Twitter Fics )
ceitfianna: (paper butterfly)
Thank you for all the help and advice on the last entry, I love this job and I'm glad its challenging me. I will figure out how best to present myself and make it work.

So far this week has just been strange and I feel like I'm fighting off something. I ended up not going to the DMV after work because some students were using school laptops in the library that I had to put away and didn't leave until 5:30. Since the DMV closed at 7 and I was already feeling rather worn down from the other stuff, I decided to go tomorrow. Due to exams, after school has been much quieter, which will allow me to leave a little earlier. I hope the paperwork won't take too long and when I hit the weekend, I'll get a long weekend. This new year is just off to a tough start but I'm going to keep growing and learning.
ceitfianna: (paper butterfly)
Today was quiet but it had a few really bright spots. One of the main middle school teachers has really taken me under her wing and she at the end of today asked me to watch one of her classes on Monday. She's part of a search committee that keeps meeting when she's teaching, so I'm helping her out. It feels wonderful to know that I'm trusted that much.

This past week was overall pretty quiet because next week are exams so all the kids have been fairly focused on work. My two programmers have been full of energy as always but they do tell me what they're doing, which I'm grateful for. Sometimes they kind of push to see what I'll let them do and they know I'm going to keep an eye on it but I don't think they begrudge me. It feels like they're glad I'm taking an interest even though they would like it better if I let them do all they wanted to.

The weather has also gone from bitterly cold to wet and warmer, which I like. Tomorrow I think I'm going to wander around downtown Birmingham, spend some holiday money and maybe catch a movie. I'm also hoping to do more setting up of my apartment. At this point there aren't a lot of boxes left but there's nothing on the walls and that always makes me feel like my place is even more mine. I want to get a shelving unit for my kitchen as my cupboards are nice but don't hold all my stuff and I want more options for arranging. I promise that there will be pictures on here of the place soon.

Now in fic news, I just wrote a fill for the Aren't You Glad You Left Livejournal" Anniversary Fic Exchange/Festival/Creatathon. Technically for this fill, I was filling my own prompt but the idea was there and there's fic, that's the bit that counts. I'll post it up on Ao3 later tonight.

An understanding. X-Men movieverse, Batman Nolanverse, Charles Xavier, the Joker, John Blake, PG for language and mentions of violence.

It was also a nicely busy Twitter Fic Friday, so here are all those fills. Looking over apparently it was a matter of lots of requests from a few people, still I like all that I wrote.
140 character fics )
ceitfianna: (lost in a library)
My meeting earlier has left me shaken but I feel more hopeful. One thing I love about this school is how even though all the complicated aspects of being part of the community as a librarian are tricky, I know I am.

Also I keep forgetting that I do sort of have a mentor or maybe just a great ally, either way I just had a good talk with a teacher about homerooms. This is the first teacher that contacted me about coming into her class and it feels like she's trying to keep an eye on me. She got where I was coming from that this is a key part of the school and I'm not sure how best to connect to it as a librarian. I got some good ideas about possibly pairing with homerooms for half the year since there are a range of homerooms. The issue for me is the library's for everyone, placing myself with just one homeroom feels odd to me. I'll find a solution.

She told me that the library feels more like a work space too and that its clear the kids respect me, I needed to hear that. Its good to know that is coming through, because one of the hardest parts of this job is getting across how the feel of the library has changed. I sometimes just want to invite teachers to come work in the library. Since I can write about periodicals and rules on gaming, but the fact that the kids see me as someone to ask for help is the change I'm proudest of.

The meeting this morning was rough but it got me going and to do some things I've been meaning to do. I will keep making things work with, but its okay to say this is hard as they haven't had a full time librarian for a while. This is new territory for everyone. My body is being weird as well because I got the hiccups, my eyes keep watering but sometimes I think they're tears, its hard to tell. Both of them have added to feeling a little out of it today.

Maybe tonight I'll go home and make sweet potato soup, that involves mashing lots of potatoes which is a good stress reliever. Then I'll have really tasty leftovers as well. I just have to get through the staff meeting first, they usually aren't too stressful.
ceitfianna: (lost in a library)
Last night I returned to Michigan to find a snow drift in front of my patio, all the snow from two drives in my complex has been pushed in front of it. This was not what I was hoping for as I had some cumbersome things to bring in and I was hoping to just put them on the porch and get them through my patio door, I ended up doing that but had to go around and do more hauling than I wanted. Though it reminded me how much I like where I've ended up living since someone said hello and told me that the other resident who lived here had complained as well. I've had lots of these small interactions since I moved in and its great, because it makes me feel like I've found a place where people care and watch out for each other. I left a message about it with the complex's office and one good thing came out of it, they finally fixed my loose oven door handle, but I have no idea if anything will change with the snow. My parent's surmise is probably right that they hire someone who just does what's easiest, I live on the corner so plow the snow there.

Today was also a good day as I returned to school and felt comfortable and as if I was coming back to a place that worked. I was able to figure out an issue with the computers, a teacher talked to me about her students doing research for exam week in the library and lots of wonderful little conversations. There are frustrations and issues to sort out, but it all makes me hopeful.

I'm going to try and do my best to take care of myself as well, which means waking up in enough time to make and bring my own tea. Last night I bought some granola bars when I did my brief grocery shop and I'll take some of them with me to eat during the day. I plan on doing leftovers and even frozen meals later on, but small steps that involve eating better are my focus. I'm trying to keep with a general eating, cooking mantra of eat better food, so more cooking, dishes that I can make on the weekend or on my earlier days to have at other times. My big basket of food goodies and equipment from my brother and sister-in-law will help with that, lots of sauces, salts and various tastes to test out. I'm going to do a big stock up at Trader Joe's this week and enjoy making food.

Weirdly or maybe not, I just felt more like I was truly being a professional today with my new jacket and gloves that kept me warm as I went to work. I plan on putting stuff up on my walls and just doing what I need to so that my apartment keeps feeling like mine.

This FicFriday was a nice one and I'm steadily working my way through my gift fics. Here I'm posting the Friday fics so I don't lose track of them.

TwitterFics )
ceitfianna: (sad face Tumnus)
I don't think my holiday cards are going to happen this year. I'm really sorry about this but the combination of new job, moving, the difficult transition has meant that my year has felt pushed about and I haven't had the time. Most of my vacation has been talking, resting, which I really needed and the cards aren't happening.

Since I do love gifting everyone and doing something for all of you wonderful people. I'm opening myself up to write more gift fics as I'm still working on the other ones. A new prompt, something we've discussed that I haven't written, whatever you would like, I'm here to write for you.

Tomorrow I start the drive back to Michigan with many supplies, goodies and I think a new coffee table from my father before starting work on Monday. I think I'm ready to reenter and face new challenges and keep doing more.
ceitfianna: (Star Trek dare to dream)
Today I went shopping in the outlets with my mother which is one of my favorite things to do when visiting. Now I've been needing a few things lately like a new watch and coat but haven't had the best of luck finding them. On this trip and especially at Orvis, I completely lucked out and everything is just a touch more professional than other things I've found and there were some fun things as well. At the moment I only have a picture of the watch over here. I'll link images that I can find online. There are cute balletflat type slippers to wear around the house in gray mix, my old Lands End slippers are still going but these are prettier and can be worn around other people more. The jacket is slightly quilted in a heathery grey and feels elegant, then I found these adorable gloves in the red plaid that fit my rather small hands perfectly and all of this stuff was hugely on sale. I do love the outlets. We also went to a kitchen store and I picked up a whisk and little spatula in pretty red colors and some nice sweaters at Eddie Bauer. It was a great trip especially as I went hey, I don't need my parents to buy me clothes anymore, I can afford them though it is still nice when they get me things.

Uncle Rob of Free Will Astrology came out with his beginning of the year horoscopes today and what he gave me perfectly captures what I want to accomplish. I want to be braver and trust that I can do what I'm trying to do. Also that not everything will be greeted by people going oh yes, that works, sometimes only a few people will acknowledge it but that's not a reason to stop. I need to remember this for my job and as I keep putting more of my writing and myself out into the world.

GEMINI (May 21-June 20): "People wish to learn to swim and at the same
time to keep one foot on the ground," said French novelist Marcel Proust.
An attitude like that is always a barrier to growth, of course, but in 2013
it would be especially ill-advised for you Geminis. In order to win full
possession of the many blessings that will be offering themselves to you,
you will have to give up your solid footing and dive into the depths over
and over again. That may sometimes be a bit nerve-racking. But it should
also generate the most fun you've had in years.
ceitfianna: (Up end in sight)
I do really love my family but two days of sleeping on odd surfaces isn't fun while my shark week hits hard. Saturday was amazing as the day was spent with my brother and his family, they gave me a basket full of cooking oils, sauces, salts and dried things for my pantry. I'm going to have such fun cooking with all of them. Sunday we went to my father's first cousin's house in North Jersey which is small, was full of people I didn't know and my body went ugh, no. I had a nap, didn't eat much and just had an odd day. The best part of the party was that my father was talking up my Yuletide story to someone from his cousin's writing group, it was strange and wonderful.

Today we traveled back to Delaware and tonight a small group of people are coming over to eat, which should be nice. Tomorrow and later this week, there will be movies and lots of not doing a lot. I'm thinking about seeing Les Mis, taking my parents to see The Hobbit and maybe Wreck-it Ralph. Oh and [personal profile] muji, I'm emailing you as if there's space in your schedule I want to see you.

I finished Code Name Verity on the drive to my brother's place and I'm still in flailing mode about it. That's just a painful, beautiful book. My next two books are going to be Pratchett's and hopefully lighter, Dodger in an ebook and Snuff in paperback.

Oh and if anyone can guess my yuletide, I'll write you a story. I'm still working on various gift fics, but the offer's there. Some hints, it's been recced by someone on my circle, its over 3k and in a fandom I've never written for before.

Also signal boost: Aren't You Glad You Left Livejournal" Anniversary Fic Exchange/Festival/Creatathon! I hope to fill some of these in the coming week since there are some great prompts.

Before I descend into party prep and just not doing a lot, I thought I'd do the end of the year meme.

Looking back on 2012 )

It feels great to go into this new year knowing that I have a job and an apartment and am finding where I fit in a new place.


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