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Doubt and Overthinking
Mar. 16th, 2018 05:21 pmI work two jobs that seem to always go between feast or famine, which is one reason I want to find a full time job. At the moment, I'm in a slow point after being sick, so while I'm healthier now and there are good things. I keep worrying and wondering about what I should be doing and what I might be doing wrong. I know myself and that I'm not the best at hustling for myself at points. Yet I have been having phone interviews which are a good reminder I do know things.
As it comes into spring, I want to try and pursue volunteer opportunities and more social stuff as getting out and doing always helps me feel better. Its that first step that's hardest. And I'm still working on my writing and trying to actually finish some big projects, but I know if I write some shorter ones, that will give me a push. Basically my head is full of a lot and I wish I had the money to go see movies and that I could quiet some of my fretting.
In good things, I've started reading an intriguing book called The General's Niece about a niece of Charles de Gaulle and while its mainly her story, its also the story of the women involved in the French Resistance. And I appreciate how at the beginning, the author talks about all the ways of resisting and what this time in history means for the French. It fits well with another book I read earlier this year called Wine and War about the Resistance and the French vinters, another nonfiction book I highly recommend.
One big reason that I've been picking up these books is to get ideas for writing Cassian and the Rebellion since Rebels and books and other provide some ideas, there's not as much as I'd like. Also I was disappointed in the Rebels' finale which seemed to forget the name of the show and ignore the bigger picture while getting into Jedi stuff. My thoughts on Rebels is an entire post on its own since I read an interview with Dave Filoni that explained some of the choices and showed that he kind of missed why people loved the show. There was a middle ground between the ending and Rogue One and it went some place else.
In an effort to feel productive and save money, I'm going to bake bread this weekend along with writing and trying to maybe see people. Then get back into looking at jobs to apply for.
As it comes into spring, I want to try and pursue volunteer opportunities and more social stuff as getting out and doing always helps me feel better. Its that first step that's hardest. And I'm still working on my writing and trying to actually finish some big projects, but I know if I write some shorter ones, that will give me a push. Basically my head is full of a lot and I wish I had the money to go see movies and that I could quiet some of my fretting.
In good things, I've started reading an intriguing book called The General's Niece about a niece of Charles de Gaulle and while its mainly her story, its also the story of the women involved in the French Resistance. And I appreciate how at the beginning, the author talks about all the ways of resisting and what this time in history means for the French. It fits well with another book I read earlier this year called Wine and War about the Resistance and the French vinters, another nonfiction book I highly recommend.
One big reason that I've been picking up these books is to get ideas for writing Cassian and the Rebellion since Rebels and books and other provide some ideas, there's not as much as I'd like. Also I was disappointed in the Rebels' finale which seemed to forget the name of the show and ignore the bigger picture while getting into Jedi stuff. My thoughts on Rebels is an entire post on its own since I read an interview with Dave Filoni that explained some of the choices and showed that he kind of missed why people loved the show. There was a middle ground between the ending and Rogue One and it went some place else.
In an effort to feel productive and save money, I'm going to bake bread this weekend along with writing and trying to maybe see people. Then get back into looking at jobs to apply for.
