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ceitfiannaMy head has cleared up and I think more than I expected, because the past two nights I've had incredibly vivid dreams that stay alive and read in my head when I wake up. In the first one, I was going to play in a larp, somewhere in the country or at least at a lovely house surrounded by green and with a stream. They gave me a character who can't speak but didn't tell me she was psychic, because at some point during the game, I fall over and just feel fear and red all through me. I'm on the ground trembling and trying to hold unto myself to make sure I don't go away as the day continues to be lovely on a green lawn. Then I wake up, but that moment of being hit from all around and someone in such pain and not being able to speak or cry out stayed with me.
This past night, I dreamed of almost being a character I have played many times before, a woman dressed as a man in a place where boys become men through sword training: Ironhall from the Blade books but not quite. We were all searching to find something and say someone and I was with one another and we ran and searched through this palace. And in some well lit rooms that looked like a plain but lovely home, my companion stopped and said this was where he sister died. Then he looked straight through me and asked why I had lied. The rest of the dream was full of running and hiding alone and together. I woke up alive and thoughtful.
Sydney made me realize how much I want performing and interacting with people to be part of my life. I wanted to act again after the play, I wanted to volunteer and tell stories on historic ships and I wanted to teach as the man who ran the bird show at the zoo did. I'm still trying to figure out how to do this, but I know without a doubt that whatever direction my life takes, it must involve the chance to pull others into a new world with my voice and body. My father taught me that dreams are powerful but the trick is knowing what they mean to you, both of these dreams were about searching and hearin and being true. I will find a way to be true.
And I have a new roommate, named Anushka from Frankfurt, Germany, quite nice and studying Law. I"m trying to organize a trip to the see the new Pirates movie here in Wellington since for me that's what you do with a fun movie, get together a group of friends and just share the movie. One of my favorite memories of my first or was it second year was getting dressed up to see the last Highlander movie, the movie was awful but we had a ball. Watching movies with people is just something I like doing. Well, my stomach says that I must be off to have lunch, mail presents from Oz to family and tell the office that my lightbulb went out.
This past night, I dreamed of almost being a character I have played many times before, a woman dressed as a man in a place where boys become men through sword training: Ironhall from the Blade books but not quite. We were all searching to find something and say someone and I was with one another and we ran and searched through this palace. And in some well lit rooms that looked like a plain but lovely home, my companion stopped and said this was where he sister died. Then he looked straight through me and asked why I had lied. The rest of the dream was full of running and hiding alone and together. I woke up alive and thoughtful.
Sydney made me realize how much I want performing and interacting with people to be part of my life. I wanted to act again after the play, I wanted to volunteer and tell stories on historic ships and I wanted to teach as the man who ran the bird show at the zoo did. I'm still trying to figure out how to do this, but I know without a doubt that whatever direction my life takes, it must involve the chance to pull others into a new world with my voice and body. My father taught me that dreams are powerful but the trick is knowing what they mean to you, both of these dreams were about searching and hearin and being true. I will find a way to be true.
And I have a new roommate, named Anushka from Frankfurt, Germany, quite nice and studying Law. I"m trying to organize a trip to the see the new Pirates movie here in Wellington since for me that's what you do with a fun movie, get together a group of friends and just share the movie. One of my favorite memories of my first or was it second year was getting dressed up to see the last Highlander movie, the movie was awful but we had a ball. Watching movies with people is just something I like doing. Well, my stomach says that I must be off to have lunch, mail presents from Oz to family and tell the office that my lightbulb went out.
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Date: 2006-07-05 12:07 am (UTC)BTW, your posts aren't showing up on either my friends page or my RSS feed; are you "backdating" them all?
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Date: 2006-07-05 12:46 am (UTC)I didn't know that would cause a problem, but I have been backdating and I'll be at reading cinema tommorow. Thank you.
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Date: 2006-07-09 06:19 am (UTC)