Beyond the Ninth Wave
Jan. 13th, 2005 07:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ceitfiannaI've been feeling in a funk lately with my new job, where I process and process and just create a big pile that I have to sort alphabetically at the end of the till my shoulders are sore. So today, after I went online for a bit, I realized I needed to wander since walking just helps me think. I discovered that though we always want to ask someone else, who's gone a little farther what's out there, we're the only ones who'll see what we need. I guess I've been feeling homesick since my parents are flying back today and I kind of had to find my feet again in Dunedin and realize, what I find here is up to me. Thus the question becomes what will I find beyond the ninth wave. For the ninth wave is the wave that always moves towards the shore and once you're past it, you're in the open sea. Fisherman, who fell from their boats would count and watch for the ninth wave to find their way home. Yet it also serves as a challenge, do you dare to go past the way home and trust yourself to the open seas, where the unknown waits around every turn.
I challenged the ninth wave when I stepped on a plane in August and there have been times, when I feel like I've lost my way and keep doing work that is just bureaucracy. Though I know that's not true, its hard to remember when you're sore and feel your eyes going from staring at the same two screens all day. Walking today, I saw Dunedin, a city with odd cafes, pubs, tourists and the students that are starting to trickle in. I saw lovely parks with memorials to men who fought for their homes or even for others and kiwis on a museum and heard seagulls calling and trying to eat whatever they could. I felt the sun on my shoulders though its late in the day and should be winter, yet the sun is shining and the day is warm.
With my parents, I've just started to explore this small country, just one island and not all of it either. I have so much to see and do and I need to remember that what I find beyond the ninth wave is up to me and what I bring back is up to me. So I will learn how to hold onto what's important to me, to make sure friends made here stay connected, to take the lessons of jobs I hate so that I end up doing what I love, and to make sure that I take risks and don't hide in a world I know. For what's the point of going beyond the ninth wave if you don't then dare to travel round the world.
I challenged the ninth wave when I stepped on a plane in August and there have been times, when I feel like I've lost my way and keep doing work that is just bureaucracy. Though I know that's not true, its hard to remember when you're sore and feel your eyes going from staring at the same two screens all day. Walking today, I saw Dunedin, a city with odd cafes, pubs, tourists and the students that are starting to trickle in. I saw lovely parks with memorials to men who fought for their homes or even for others and kiwis on a museum and heard seagulls calling and trying to eat whatever they could. I felt the sun on my shoulders though its late in the day and should be winter, yet the sun is shining and the day is warm.
With my parents, I've just started to explore this small country, just one island and not all of it either. I have so much to see and do and I need to remember that what I find beyond the ninth wave is up to me and what I bring back is up to me. So I will learn how to hold onto what's important to me, to make sure friends made here stay connected, to take the lessons of jobs I hate so that I end up doing what I love, and to make sure that I take risks and don't hide in a world I know. For what's the point of going beyond the ninth wave if you don't then dare to travel round the world.
