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The World Shifted
Mar. 7th, 2005 05:27 pmA lot has happened since I last posted with work and life. I started out last week feeling happy because I felt I'd escaped from the Ministry of Health, yet I wasn't happy. My body was worn out and I was afraid since I didn't know what was going to happen next. I had Monday off, and then Tuesday found myself back at the ministry. I had a good cry and then talked to my employment agency and said what else is there since I don't want to be trapped in that unhappy place. So till today, I worked there and tommorow I finally have a new start and a new place in New Zealand to explore. I'll be working at Arthur Barnett, which is a department store in Dunedin doing data entry and I'll work there until my best friend, Erin arrives in New Zealand.
Also the middle of last week, I ended up being sick, which just made the Ministry of Health even worse, because its an unhappy workplace. No one seems to really want to be there or enjoy the work they do. And so if you're not in a goood place, its just weighs you down. So Wednesday, I felt awful, I had a fever and Rowan looked at me and ordered me home, where I slept till I felt better. Then Thursday and Friday the world seemed to be trying to make me feel small, my landlord nagged me about stupid stuff, Rowan was busy and work was just hard. So I made a choice when I went to bed on Saturday night that I would not let anyone have that kind of control over me, I wouldn't worry about just being Rowan's friend or the landlord being a cheapskate and having a powertrip. I would wake up in the morning and find what I could find.
I started Friday feeling lighter and it showed, life just felt better. I had an early night since I wasn't completely better yet. I wanderered around Dunedin and I talked to my parents and I must have looked so comfortable and right there that three different people asked me for directions. I love that feeling of being in a place long enough that you look like you fit. Then Rowan texted me and we talked about his cv since he's working on it since this is his last year of school, then we saw Constantine, which was fun and not as bad as I expected. Afterwards we ended up talking in a kebab place about what does it mean to be good and in the midst of this, the world shifted and now Rowan and I are an us. What's lovely is that the shift is both huge and tiny all at once since he's already one of my closest and best friends. And for a writer, I'm having a hard time describing this lovely place I'm in. But it looks like, I'll get my two favorite people too since Rowan has a long weekend when Erin's visiting, so he may be able to show us around Wellington, his home town. I think I'll end this here since life is just good and in April I'll have more pictures including one of Rowan looking more like himself.
Also the middle of last week, I ended up being sick, which just made the Ministry of Health even worse, because its an unhappy workplace. No one seems to really want to be there or enjoy the work they do. And so if you're not in a goood place, its just weighs you down. So Wednesday, I felt awful, I had a fever and Rowan looked at me and ordered me home, where I slept till I felt better. Then Thursday and Friday the world seemed to be trying to make me feel small, my landlord nagged me about stupid stuff, Rowan was busy and work was just hard. So I made a choice when I went to bed on Saturday night that I would not let anyone have that kind of control over me, I wouldn't worry about just being Rowan's friend or the landlord being a cheapskate and having a powertrip. I would wake up in the morning and find what I could find.
I started Friday feeling lighter and it showed, life just felt better. I had an early night since I wasn't completely better yet. I wanderered around Dunedin and I talked to my parents and I must have looked so comfortable and right there that three different people asked me for directions. I love that feeling of being in a place long enough that you look like you fit. Then Rowan texted me and we talked about his cv since he's working on it since this is his last year of school, then we saw Constantine, which was fun and not as bad as I expected. Afterwards we ended up talking in a kebab place about what does it mean to be good and in the midst of this, the world shifted and now Rowan and I are an us. What's lovely is that the shift is both huge and tiny all at once since he's already one of my closest and best friends. And for a writer, I'm having a hard time describing this lovely place I'm in. But it looks like, I'll get my two favorite people too since Rowan has a long weekend when Erin's visiting, so he may be able to show us around Wellington, his home town. I think I'll end this here since life is just good and in April I'll have more pictures including one of Rowan looking more like himself.
