Feeling Better

[ceitfianna]

I've been in an odd state these past two weeks since there's a new intern at the museum and I've just gone between happy and worn alot. But today I did something that feels like a wonderful step to freedom. Today I got in the mail the most recent application for the New Zealand program and filled out all I need to, now its just a matter of a reference filling out part and sending a step and I'm one step closer. What's made things so tough is that every once in a while it just hits me that Suzi isn't there and I just feel alone and don't know how to approach cute guys I see and just become whatever's next for me. So I've been thinking a bit too much and working quite hard at the museum reading logbooks till my eyes hurt. So I need to do something for myself and to release my feelings in some way. Since its so easy to become trapped in your own head. But in March, I get to go be with my best friend which will help us both a lot. That's all for now, my thoughts are piecemeal at the moment.