Loneliness: Charles is constantly on the edge of loneliness because he is so aware of the spaces between people. He expects that when people find out what his ability is that they will be suspicious and tell him to get out, to leave them alone, he partly expects it. This is what happened when he was younger with his telepathy, he said things he shouldn't have aloud and lost friends, Raven only lets him in so far as does Erik. Whenever someone goes, its okay, you can come in, I want to learn about what you can do, he's amazed. Also because he knows loneliness so intimately, its important to him to keep others from feeling lonely. He wants other mutants to know that they're not the only one, there are other people who do understand being alone on the edges. I always think of it as like that phrase I saw tumblr I think; the loneliest people are the friendliest because they don't want someone else to feel like they do.
Sanity: The fear and awareness of the thin line between being sane and himself and getting lost in other's minds and madness dictates Charles' control. The fear comes from how when he was younger and hadn't figured out how best to manage his telepathy, his mother considered that perhaps he might be a little mad, that terrified him. Also he fears getting lost in other's minds and dreams especially, so he works to have control, he needs that control. He also understands that when he chooses how to use his mutation, it becomes more than what he does. This philosophy is how he teaches other mutants, when you have control then your mutation isn't something strange inside of you but you.
Truth: He doesn't like lying, he can be a decent liar but not a great one, because when what's thought and what's said doesn't match up it bothers him. He knows that life requires lots of little lies, but he constantly tries to be emotionally honest as much as possible. This is tied to feeling like he has to hide his telepathy, his way of balancing all he knows is that he will be as honest as he can be. He wants to be able to say to the world, this is who I am, accept me.
Balance: On his own and with others, he's experienced the best and worst of people's emotions and tries to have a balance. The moment in the movie when he talks about rage and serenity to Erik for me was an aha for me. Since he feels what others feel, he can get pulled deep into someone's despair and joy, which means his own center has to be strong enough to pull him back to himself.
Privilege: He comes from a wealthy family, is smart, handsome and has a mutation that's invisible. Though he knows and has experienced some difficult things, he still comes from a wonderful starting point. That's why at times, he's an idiot and doesn't think through some of his choices and how they will affect someone not from the same place. Telepathy and empathy aren't always enough to equal his privilege. Erik is the balance for him in this as Erik will go, no, that's being stupid and not right. Raven will do some of this as well but their relationship has a different shape to it, so Erik will say things that she won't.
Education: Charles is a constant teacher and a student, it comes naturally to him and he wants to help. If he sees a way to be of assistance, then he will offer, because he enjoys teaching and he always ends up learning something.
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Date: 2012-12-03 01:29 pm (UTC)Sanity: The fear and awareness of the thin line between being sane and himself and getting lost in other's minds and madness dictates Charles' control. The fear comes from how when he was younger and hadn't figured out how best to manage his telepathy, his mother considered that perhaps he might be a little mad, that terrified him. Also he fears getting lost in other's minds and dreams especially, so he works to have control, he needs that control. He also understands that when he chooses how to use his mutation, it becomes more than what he does. This philosophy is how he teaches other mutants, when you have control then your mutation isn't something strange inside of you but you.
Truth: He doesn't like lying, he can be a decent liar but not a great one, because when what's thought and what's said doesn't match up it bothers him. He knows that life requires lots of little lies, but he constantly tries to be emotionally honest as much as possible. This is tied to feeling like he has to hide his telepathy, his way of balancing all he knows is that he will be as honest as he can be. He wants to be able to say to the world, this is who I am, accept me.
Balance: On his own and with others, he's experienced the best and worst of people's emotions and tries to have a balance. The moment in the movie when he talks about rage and serenity to Erik for me was an aha for me. Since he feels what others feel, he can get pulled deep into someone's despair and joy, which means his own center has to be strong enough to pull him back to himself.
Privilege: He comes from a wealthy family, is smart, handsome and has a mutation that's invisible. Though he knows and has experienced some difficult things, he still comes from a wonderful starting point. That's why at times, he's an idiot and doesn't think through some of his choices and how they will affect someone not from the same place. Telepathy and empathy aren't always enough to equal his privilege. Erik is the balance for him in this as Erik will go, no, that's being stupid and not right. Raven will do some of this as well but their relationship has a different shape to it, so Erik will say things that she won't.
Education: Charles is a constant teacher and a student, it comes naturally to him and he wants to help. If he sees a way to be of assistance, then he will offer, because he enjoys teaching and he always ends up learning something.