Enjoying Being Myself
Aug. 10th, 2010 03:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ceitfiannaYesterday I went shopping with my mother and picked up two good pairs of pants, a cute top, good shoes and lots of nice underwear. It was a true adventure and reminded me just how weird shopping for clothing really is. Though I'm happy to say that I didn't let it get me down. My body's not where I want it to be, but my focus is school and I have clothing that makes me feel pretty which is a start. I decided before we went yesterday that I wasn't going to let myself feel hurt, because clothing didn't fit. That just creates unhappiness and doesn't really get anywhere. So I'm trying to go with the advice of an amazing woman who said, dress the body you have and I did. It was just so strange to wander from stores like Ann Taylor to Orvis to Eddie Bauer to Lane Bryant, they all have their own specific audiences and I can find things that work in all of them. Yet as stores, they also share common problems where they tend to have a certain way things are cut and the chaos of what size are you in this store today? I think that's why shopping is so wearing, it's really a search to find things that work consistently. My mother and I kept talking about the weirdness of clothing and sizing as we were shopping, which made the day go quicker. We still spent about six hours shopping, which was far too much.
Not too long ago I finished a book called The Gaslight Dogs by Karin Lowachee that was recommended on one of the book blogs I follow. Its set in an alternate world that has a steampunk and kind of empire feel combined with the American West. The story is told through two characters, a woman who's pretty much an Inuit and a cavalry captain, they get pulled into a complicated scheme by the Captain's father who's a general. Most of the story is about them trying to understand each other and the world around them. Sadly I found the ending a let down, because the story seemed to be pushing towards a major change in the status quo, yet when it finally ended, yes, things had changed for them but not as much as I had hoped for. The author does a wonderful job of showing all of the complicated feelings and reactions on all sides when land and power is at stake and then spirituality and almost magic get pushed in too. The main reason that I'd recommend it is that its a book that I'd like to talk about since it left me wanting more.
My plans for next semester are coming together, my fourth class is going to be about Online Searching and Databases and is taught by a good professor. The only annoying thing is that its at 8:30 in the morning, but I'll have all my classes in the middle of the week. I hope that I can then set aside at least one night just for myself like I did last semester. Having my internship along with my job will make things trickier, but I think I can manage it. I hope so. Today I connected with the librarian in Lewes that mentored me before I went to Michigan, it was such a pleasure to talk to her. Also to find out that we follow and read a lot of the same people, I just love knowing that I'm going in the right direction.
I'm also starting to actually relax a little more which is nice. The wonderful prompt filled Daily Entertainment was just great to start the day with and come back to. My thread is over here.
Not too long ago I finished a book called The Gaslight Dogs by Karin Lowachee that was recommended on one of the book blogs I follow. Its set in an alternate world that has a steampunk and kind of empire feel combined with the American West. The story is told through two characters, a woman who's pretty much an Inuit and a cavalry captain, they get pulled into a complicated scheme by the Captain's father who's a general. Most of the story is about them trying to understand each other and the world around them. Sadly I found the ending a let down, because the story seemed to be pushing towards a major change in the status quo, yet when it finally ended, yes, things had changed for them but not as much as I had hoped for. The author does a wonderful job of showing all of the complicated feelings and reactions on all sides when land and power is at stake and then spirituality and almost magic get pushed in too. The main reason that I'd recommend it is that its a book that I'd like to talk about since it left me wanting more.
My plans for next semester are coming together, my fourth class is going to be about Online Searching and Databases and is taught by a good professor. The only annoying thing is that its at 8:30 in the morning, but I'll have all my classes in the middle of the week. I hope that I can then set aside at least one night just for myself like I did last semester. Having my internship along with my job will make things trickier, but I think I can manage it. I hope so. Today I connected with the librarian in Lewes that mentored me before I went to Michigan, it was such a pleasure to talk to her. Also to find out that we follow and read a lot of the same people, I just love knowing that I'm going in the right direction.
I'm also starting to actually relax a little more which is nice. The wonderful prompt filled Daily Entertainment was just great to start the day with and come back to. My thread is over here.
