A Touch of Hope

I just got back from a walk in town and a wonderful talk with the amazing woman who owns this small, metaphysical gift shop called Journeys. Talking to her always makes me feel better and she gave me a piece of a stone called apatite since she had a feeling I needed it.

It turns out that this stone is associated with Gemini which I am and a lot of things to do with where I am now. Also I found a beautiful pair of earrings for my mother and I think I am going to buy Band of Brothers since it is on sale and talk to my parents a bit about my budget.

Since I realized today that I'm actually currently on less than when I was a student and about 50 extra would make things easier. I'm tired but really needed that walk and I'll figure things out somehow.

One small edit, I think I'm not going to freak out too much about getting holiday stuff out before the holidays because that will drive me nuts so stuff will go in waves. Also I might have found a place to sell my Madame Alexander dolls because damn it, I would like to make some money somehow.

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Okay, time to stop flailing about money, it make me even crazier and on edge. Presents and stuff will get to people in time and I'm going to try and not worry too much about when and just do what I can. That money is there for all those things that my parents can't provide including fun stuff for myself.

When it comes down to choices about things, I think I need to just trust my instinct and realize that I'll find ways to make things work and that its a hard time for everyone so better to enjoy what there is and not get myself in knots about stuff I can't change.

Also my brother recommended a good job site called indeed.com which has some nice possibilities so tomorrow I will start the process over again. And tonight I'm going to buy myself Band of Brothers and make cookies this weekend, print pretty cards and beautiful photographs for family presents and just be grateful.

Thanks again for listening to me go on and I will get to the drabbles soon, I just have been low on ideas and today I just hit a low spot as the fact of not getting the job hit.