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Well, I accomplished something at least, I have another thing to give my mother, tons of ideas for my brother, and father. Also I made an eye appointment so I can actually get new contacts which I've been needing since about August.

Still haven't heard anything yet and every time I see a new message on the phone, its making me jumpy. Perhaps tomorrow I will take my 10 dollar gift certificate from Eddie Bauer and go get something nice for myself.

I sort of want to go to a movie but I'm trying to not spend a lot of money on myself until I have my Christmas shopping done and I still have a good bit to do. I'm not good at waiting and need to be getting into a positive headspace since I can feel myself sort of sinking and going augh which I don't want.

Walking into town was good and I had a lovely cheap tuna melt and chocolate chai at my favorite cafe and talked to a friendly shop lady who likes me and is hoping for me. So I just need to keep having hope and focus on thinking about fun stuff to get people