Wandering

I'm feeling full of self doubt lately as I see the end of this year ending and look at all the work I have to do. My parents gave me some money to spend on nice things for myself and I've been having a hard time spending it, most of it seems to be getting used for food, one movie and I bought a shirt yesterday.

I think I'm realizing that I what I really need now isn't easily bought, its the confidence to just sit down and write accepting I will finish what I started. My masters probably will not end up being one of the best things I've written, but its also taught me that this is not a career for me. I need people more than words.

I hope what I accomplish this year and these past years in New Zealand will allow me to find my own place in the States. I'm ready to be home, to meet all the new people I've met, reconnect with old friends and really find my way.