ceitfianna: (Allpocalypse)
My day today went from getting going on a good schedule to annoyed at the hotel and then curled up in a snow day. I'm not too far from Boston and have done some arranging for my job thing tomorrow, not everything was moved but I sent messages.

This hotel is one I won't be coming back because even though its a chain I like and near the highway, the way they acted this morning was awful. So I wasn't the only one trying to leave this morning and I said I was checking out. Then I went to my car, got my stuff inside, cleared it off, everything started and I was able to back out and then got stuck. That all took me half an hour, I know they were busy but I feel like if you have a hotel with snow expected, check in a lot with people. Weirdly, there were two guys in a pick up truck just sitting there. I still don't know if they were watching me or what.

So I went in, cold, wet and annoyed because the side door locked and I'd turned in my key. I get in and try to get the front desk attention, they finally try and help me because I'd pulled my car out enough to block the snow plow. After a lot of yelling and some more interactions where they really didn't seem to trust that I knew my car, we got it back into its parking spot. Another woman who's car was out near mine watched it and was wonderful for sympathizing with me and saying, no, I heard what they were saying, you were right. I really needed that. I know what it sounds like when wheels are spinning, but it did get back into its parking space.

At that point, the snow was still coming down and the news kept saying roads were closing due to accidents. I decided to stay the night so had to go back out to get my bag and then upstairs for tea. Thankfully a local restaurant did deliver, I had a disappointing dinner from them last night and a good pizza today. That will be dinner too. Tomorrow I'll head out early and probably drive straight to the interview hotel then go collapse where I'm staying. And at this job conference, a lot of places want to talk to me, if I miss some, I'll know I've tried and they will too.

In good news, as the cable in the hotel wasn't working, I finally watched Finding Dory, which is a complicated movie. It has some good and not so much messages about disability but overall lovely. I've also finally started reading Goldenhand and I'm liking it a lot better than Clariel. It has the faster movement to it that I liked in the other books. The Old Kingdom is a world that I'm happy to revisit. And In the Heart of the Sea is on TV too, so far its beautifully made.

Life is a lot but from my experience of heading up to Boston last time for apartment searching, I know that New England states do know how to deal with snow. Tomorrow's drive won't be fun, but I think it will be manageable.

There's also all the mess of politics that I'm working on finding how to best create change and not be overwhelmed. Its hard but all of this is making me more certain than ever that I'm in the right profession where librarians and teachers work to protect and educate.

Worn down

Nov. 9th, 2016 04:00 pm
ceitfianna: (breaking each other)
I stayed up with my mother watching the returns until almost 2 am. I looked at Twitter before going to sleep and saw that no recounts would be happening. This morning, I also found out that one of our oldest family friends died this morning.

Others have used better words than I have, so I'm focusing on how I'm a librarian and an educator. I'm going to do everything I can to give every child I interact with knowledge and understanding to question their world and mirrors and windows. I wish that I lived closer to everyone of you for shared tea and hugs in these scary days.
ceitfianna: (breaking each other)
Tomorrow I'm going to the memorial of a woman who was basically an adopted aunt. I have all these words I want to say about her and I don't know where to start. I keep looking back at my life and seeing her thumbprints in terms of being thoughtful, loving and teaching.

Today my mom and I made a huge amount of cookies for the reception after her memorial, a potluck because she always loved potlucks. Food made to be shared and with love matters.

She died a week ago and I don't know if I'm ready to not have her somewhere. She's been failing and hurting and she passed in her sleep, but I miss her.
ceitfianna: (Allpocalypse)
David Bowie will be missed. I wish I had my copy of The Prestige or a way to watch Velvet Goldmine that was so inspired by him. As always when the internet publicly mourns, it can end up being rather overwhelming but I like seeing him on my dash.

Day 11

In your own space, make a list of at least 3 things that you like about yourself. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it.


This is a hard and important challenge.

1-I'm a good librarian and teacher.
2-I'm proud of what I write and feel like I'm improving over time.
3-I've been getting much better at not only asking for what I want and need but being willing to say no and not feel guilty about it.
ceitfianna: (running towards a happy ending)
Thank you [personal profile] just_ann_now and [personal profile] camwyn, your cards have arrived and they're lovely. For anyone who'd like one and if you've moved or not sure I have your proper address, please comment on this post, also if you'd like a fic, let me know. All comments are screened and I hope to get them out this weekend.

Today I started the first day of a four day subbing job doing close to what I love and as always it leaves me thoughtful about what works versus ideas. I'm glad I signed up for this almost week long job, RP and writing will be slower but that happens. I'm also revving up for another round of many job applications, because I want to be in a place full of people who get me and that means finding a job that works and wants me.

Yuletide is going, I feel like its a good pace and I'm happy with what I've written so far. An unexpected pleasure is helping with the weeding at my local library in preparation for their move next year. At the moment, I'm going through the juvenile nonfiction section and some of the books are strange. I enjoy having the time to do that and it gives me a chance to talk more with my mentor there.

For now, I'm glad to be sitting as this subbing job requires lots of standing but I have good shoes.
ceitfianna: (Dean time rambles on)
From [personal profile] k_a_webb a meme that gives me an excuse to update. She gave me 27.

If you comment here with the words "I wanna play" I will assign you a number from 15-30 of facts about yourself to post about yourself in your journal.

1-I'm allergic to pretty much the entire bee and wasp family-the vespids.
2-I lived in New Zealand for three years.
3-I speak French and can read and write Latin and Ancient Greek.
4-I always have a book in my purse-current one Half-Resurrection Blues by Daniel Jose Older.
5-Country music is my comfort music.
6-The best way for me to finishing writing a fic is if I'm writing it as a gift for someone or as part of a fic exchange.
7-I didn't get my driver's license until I moved back from New Zealand in 2008.
8-My dream job would be as a youth librarian at a small public library or a middle school librarian.
9-I hate the texture of raw coconut.
10-My two favorite kinds of tea are English Breakfast and Earl Grey.
11-At the moment I live in a seaside town with a lot of retirees.
12-For every new book I'm reading, I'm always rereading an old favorite at the same time.
13-I love working as a fact-checker, its intense and interesting and has helped me feel far more confident in my research abilities.
14-Every day I wear my watch, two bracelets and always put on earrings and a necklace.
15-I discovered my first grey hair was I was in my sophomore year of high school and have a grey/silver streak hidden in my hair.
16-I'm part of a blended family, the youngest and the glue with two older brothers and an older sister.
17-I studied abroad in Athens in 2002 and whenever I read about Greece's troubles, I remember how beautiful the country is and how kind the people were.
18-I've been wearing glasses since fourth grade and contacts since my senior year of college.
19-I miss having a cat.
20-If I won the lottery, I would pay off friends' debts then travel to see everyone especially my new nephew.
21-I was raised as a Quaker and consider myself one.
22-I don't like the taste of coffee.
23-My favorite color is dark blue.
24-I know how to do stage makeup.
25-I get my best ideas when walking or driving.
26-My great-grandfather was a Congressman, a member of the House of Representatives.
ceitfianna: (Dean time rambles on)
I'm having a quiet week since due to when the school break is, I won't be substituting at all. That's given me time to get to work on a number of things I've been meaning to do and have the time to finish up some reading.

Today I signed up to write a review for Smart Bitches, Trashy Books. I love looking through the RITA nominees and then seeing what I can find at the library. In an annoying twist, the books that really caught my eye weren't at the library but they just add to my to-read list.

I also signed up to do some volunteering with one of the library associations with, I hope that helps me in terms of reaching out. Its something I've been wanting to do more of, but I needed to get a little braver. I'm waiting on hearing from a school, so the busier I am the better. It feels like there are doors opening and I only need one place to say, yes, we want you. I did my taxes today which were simple, that was nice and now they're done and I've sorted a lot of books to go the library book sale. My other main goal for myself this week other than the sorting and taxes is to finish a fic and post it.

That reminds me, one of the ARCs, I picked up in Chicago was for To Hold the Bridge by Garth Nix. I know a lot of people on my circle/flist read him and I'd love to pass it on to someone who will enjoy it. Comment here and we can figure out how to get it to you.

Now for the books that have been happily filling my time.
What I finished reading

Only Enchanting by Mary Balogh, this book is part of her Survivor's Club series which focuses on a group who were all wounded in various ways during the Napoleonic Wars. They're brought together by a noble who lost his son and opened his estate to all of them to heal. The series starts six or so years after they all returned and now they're mainly healed and meet annually at the same estate. I adore this series and Balogh's writing, because all the characters have depth, she shows different sides of the Regency world and all of the endings feel earned. This one is particularly interesting as the hero suffered major head trauma so he has missing parts of his memories and doesn't always feel in control. I liked how she dealt with his challenges and the romance was complex and fascinating.

I also finished my reread of Passage by Connie Willis and my parents are currently reading it. I always enjoy her writing because of how they remind me of my favorite mysteries, strong characters, a plot that pulls me in with the addition of something more.

What I'm reading now

Shadow Scale by Rachel Hartman and this is an amazing book. I love how the story and the world has grown bigger since Seraphina and the challenges that face her.

The Seneca Falls Inheritance by Miriam Grace Monfredo which is interesting. Its a mystery about a librarian set not long before the Seneca Falls Confederation and the main character is a friend of Elizabeth Cady Stanton. The writing is good, the author brings in many aspects of what it means for the main character to be a single woman and how she fits into the town. So far the mystery isn't that gripping which is why I keep putting it down and picking it back up again.

What I'm reading next

Yesterday at the library, I picked up Night Watch as its been a while since I reread it. Other than that, I'm not sure, my to-read pile is always daunting and challenging.
ceitfianna: (Charles+Raven-here to hold you)
Yesterday I finally saw The Winter Soldier and wow that movie, I need to see it again.

Thoughts with some spoilers are under here. )

I need to see it again and I'm coming to love the soundtracks of Henry Jackman, his music just works. He did the soundtrack for X-Men: First Class and I heard him interviewed on an NPR show about movie soundtracks.

My jet lag is getting better and its wonderful to not have anything huge coming up in the near future other than family visiting for Easter. I keep looking back at the last month and a half where I did three weeks of fact-checking, to DC for the job then out to LA for an interview and it makes sense that not a lot of other things have been happening. But all that traveling has my words coming again. I'm hoping to write some queer fest fics and today I wrote a librarian blog: Busy days: Fact-checking and the school librarian as goalie.

Oh and ages ago, I put up a prompt meme with a 100 prompts. Its still open as writing for other people always works well for me.
ceitfianna: (stars in a tree)
My words have gotten loose finally, I've missed them. In November, I got stuck in my own head and my own worries and everything slowed and didn't work. In the last week, they've started flowing again and oh I've missed them a lot. My Yuletide is over 1000 words, it has no real structure to speak of but there are words there. I'm in the process of applying to be a substitute teacher, my resume is looking better and I'm making plans to go to ALA Midwinter. Also the few holiday cards and presents I'm sending out will be going out soon. I'm sorry I won't able to be send something to everyone but my wallet isn't up for it, but do know I want everyone to have a wonderful new year.

Now for the December Meme, this is my last prompt through I do have two fics I plan to write. Please ask me more and ask me into January or an unspecified date. I love what I'm getting asked and want more reasons to write.

[personal profile] aberration asked: Favorite movies! At least three, but as many as you want.

Movies are like books for me, there are so many I love but a lot of it shifts depending on what I've watched recently. These are the three that come to mind first and are my current favorite movies and not favorite movies of all time, that's trickier.

Russian Ark: This movie feels like a companion to Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norrell to me, because its on the edges of time and yet looking at things of certain times. There are stories within it that we never truly know; the narrator and the European, yet we don't need to know their stories to appreciate the movie. Also Russia, I want to go there someday, not at the moment but this year I also read Mastering the Art of Soviet Cooking which is about time and Russia. So going back to this movie made sense to me and its one of those movies that I always see something more in it.

Dead Poet's Society: In my mind because I recently went to the private school in Delaware where it was filmed. I was there for an amazing networking thing so only had a moment to snap three photos with my phone of the courtyard and view onto the river from the movie. But augh, this movie, that I rented from our local video place who's name I don't remember and fell in love. I remember sitting in front of the TV that used to be higher up and crying at, then it was one of the first videos I bought for myself along with Newsies. Its why I adore Walt Whitman and why being a teacher counts to me so much, because I've seen how powerful it is to say to a child, I see you and know you can do more.

Pacific Rim: When I saw this movie in the theaters, I needed it a lot. My past year had been awful but seeing people coming together and caring and fighting, it made me happy. I still have two works in progress that are fusions of Pacific Rim and other canons because it just woke up my imagination. I love how hopeful it is and global, not easy things to manage in a movie. I love it.

Now to end the same way I did with the book posts, ask me tomorrow and the answers might change.
ceitfianna: (Bones Oh Please)
I feel accomplished. I've started the process to become a substitute teacher, sent off thank you notes and have sorted all the books in my room. The last isn't as major as it sounds since most of my books are in storage, these are just the ones I've picked up since moving here and left over from ALA. Many are going to better places as I won't reread them and I was reminded of those I do want to read. I feel like I'm getting out of the low place I got into in November when it felt like there was no chance of me finding another job. Instead it seems as if maybe there is hope out there.

Now for the December meme which isn't filled up, come and leave me things to write about here as much of the month is open.

For today [personal profile] quarter_to_five asked for: show/episode/book/movie/something that you just hated.

This one is really easy to answer as I recently rewatched Bull Durham, which is a movie I love and probably created my small crush on Kevin Costner as a girl. Sadly that crush took a major hit when Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves came out.

Now anyone who's followed me for a while knows that Robin Hood is one of those stories that I have a deep and abiding attachment to and ideas of how I think it should be done. When Prince of Thieves came out, I was I think twelve or thirteen and it was the first movie that I had a truly visceral, my god what have you done to the story I love reaction. I saw it with my best friend and her family, we ate dinner out in the car, cold chicken, came in and I remember staring at the witch scene. Then Robin came back from the Crusades which is something I don't get. Robin is of Nottingham and Sherwood, Richard comes back from the Crusades and Costner was awful. Then Alan Rickman camped it up, which he did well, Andie McDowell tried, she did try but had no chance. I spent most of that movie staring at the screen in horror at what had happened to my story. Actors I've liked went far down in my perception due to, Christian Slater is a good actor, he is not meant for that sort of movie. There were moments of oh, Wolf, oh Wolf, he's rather like my Will, he deserved a better movie as did Morgan Freeman's character. A generic fantasy or medieval piece would have been just fine, not Robin Hood. Its not the only medieval story to take from. When it was a movie to watch at a girl scout camp, I hid from it because of how much I disliked it. The more I think on it, the more awful moments I remember that felt tossed in for the sake of let's put it in there. It never felt coherent, I didn't care for anyone and it was an utter mess.

I did like the soundtrack because the music feels so separated from the story to me that I can enjoy. Also I played it in marching band so it attached to band practices which helps. This is rather rambling but this is truly one of the few things in the world that will make me go, no, get it away from me.

A reminder

Aug. 28th, 2013 03:22 pm
ceitfianna: (Charles/Erik-remake the world)
As it rains outside, I'm sitting and listening to the 50th anniversary of the March on Washington on NPR and remembering why I chose to be an educator and a librarian. This past year while I worked in the suburbs around Detroit, I learned a lot by seeing how the internet has opened ways for young people to explore more of the world and question it. Yet I also saw how adults wouldn't listen because there were some truths that they weren't ready to deal with. I hope that the speeches today are heard and do make a change because listening to each other and understanding that we all need each other matters. Its heartening to hear the lists of everyone who counts in the speeches because it shows that in fifty years, more people are recognized. There's a lot to do and if I can help by providing access to books that better reflect the make up of America and access to online resources and a safe space for young people then I'll do it.

I've been rattling around in my parents' house in Delaware, which I really needed. Being by the coast makes me happy and settled in a way that's helps me feel better. Part of that is lots of pictures because this area is beautiful and my parents have created a wonderful haven for themselves here. Most of the pictures have been posted on my Twitter and Tumblr, but if you don't follow me there, on Instagram I'm here and you can look over them. Sadly Instagram doesn't make it easy to post images into blog posts or else I'd do that more often. I've been going for walks and taking care of various errands plus finishing up a few fics. Also due to being a writer, I listen to this history and find myself wanting to write about Charles listening to these speeches with his first few students and realizing that change can come about. I really wish that Pacific Rim was playing somewhere nearby because I could do with a rewatch of it.

One nice benefit of my parents' place is that they have a big TV, no cable but an Apple TV so I've been catching up on various shows. I've now watched most of the older seasons of Warehouse 13, the first season of New Girl, which I loved, some of Parks and Recreation which didn't really catch me, The Vicar of Dibley and various other movies and shows that catch my attention. Sadly I haven't figured out how to mirror my computer on the TV, I think its because my laptop is older than Airplay, but I'll sort it out at some point. And I hope soon to start working at my local library, which will be wonderful. Its a great library and a place that I enjoy being in.

FicFriday returned last week with lots of wonderful prompts.
Twitter fics> For @minkhollow42 <i>Dem, to everything there is a season</i>  )
ceitfianna: (a writer's life)
Well, all my words decided to come out today in a librarian post as well as a fic.

First off a big signal boost to Marvel Femslash Prompt Fest because its a great idea.

Then in tougher news, I wrote End of the Year: Changed for good over on my professional librarian blog. This wasn't easy to write but I needed to put on that blog about looking for a job before I can start doing the sorts of posts I want. The next ones will be about school culture and what I learned.

The other piece that I wrote today was Last Midnight, a smutty Charles/Erik piece for one of my Tumblr followers. She was having a very hard night and this was something I could do and I'm happy with it. It reminded me of how there's a lot still to write with Charles and Erik. It contains quite explicit sex as she wanted smutty.

Tomorrow I hope to order myself some business cards as I found a design that really works for me and start the next stage of my life as I look for a job. I feel like since Wednesday, I've been in what my mother calls decompression as I shift from one experience to the next. And ten days from today, I will be on a train to Chicago for the ALA conference.

Also there was FicFriday, need to include those as well.
Twitter Fic )
ceitfianna: (Dean time rambles on)
My original plan for today was to go out somewhere either to the DIA or the Detroit Zoo, but instead I slept in wonderfully long and late. It turns out that I needed it and then I went and enjoyed a nice lunch. I opened up my package from my parents which had homemade chocolate-hazelnut brownies, which are delicious, lovely earrings with a circle of red and blue glass and a pile of Agatha Christie mysteries. One of them is a Poirot, which I recently bought for myself to reread as I was having a kind of craving for it. I love that we think that much alike. Early, my mother also sent me a Lush gift card which I haven't used yet but have ideas for.

Tomorrow if the weather's nice, I will head out to the zoo and then next week will be odd but good. None of the last days are actually full days so Friday really was my last full day of school. It was a nice day, chaotic and fun and it struck me how I've made an impression, the head of maintenance just kept talking to me about the history of the school and his experiences. And after work when I was eating a sandwich, two high school kids saw me and checked in. I think that might have been because one I was gone for so long and two because my eyes watering and contacts being horrible made it seem like I might have been crying. Other people checked in with me too, it was a good day. I'll probably have more feelings as time goes on but for now, I can look back at this year and be thankful for what I've learned and the trust put in me by the kids and others at the school. Wherever I go next, I'm to quote Wicked changed for good.

I realized due to heading off on my roadtrip that I never got around to writing up last Friday's fics and I ended up doing some this Friday as well. Its going to be a long list.

Twitter Fics )
ceitfianna: (lost in a library)
Today was a good day, I realized just how much of a difference I've made as the kids are taking out more books, listen to me and just connecting. It takes time to get the trust and respect of kids and I'll leave with it and knowing I can get it. I want to hold onto that.

In productive news, I finally did a post on my librarian blog about gaming, its Searching for Balance: gaming in the library.

Also my horoscope from Uncle Rob is just what I need to read. I will not expend my energy on those who don't see me. Instead I will stretch my job net wide, step out of my comfort zone and find a place where I'll be happy.

GEMINI (May 21-June 20): "I need not sell my soul to buy bliss," says a
character in Charlotte Bronte's 19th-century novel *Jane Eyre.* "I have an
inward treasure born with me, which can keep me alive if all extraneous
delights should be withheld, or offered only at a price I cannot afford to
give." This would be a great speech for you to memorize and periodically
recite in the next two weeks. Do it in front of your mirror at least once a
day to remind yourself of how amazingly resourceful you are. It will also
help you resist the temptation to seek gifts from people who can't or
won't give them to you.
ceitfianna: (Charles+Raven-here to hold you)
I found this on [profile] seananmcguire's tumblr and it felt right on this day full of moments of connections. I told one of my regulars who was asking about getting headphone splitters for the computers that I wouldn't be at the school next year, he whined and leaned his head on my shoulder, seventh grader for context. It just about broke my heart, I want to spend my life working with kids and teachers making connections.

Naomi Shihab Nye (b. 1952), “Wandering Around an Albuquerque Airport Terminal.”

After learning my flight was detained 4 hours,
I heard the announcement:
If anyone in the vicinity of gate 4-A understands any Arabic,
Please come to the gate immediately.

Well—one pauses these days. Gate 4-A was my own gate. I went there.
An older woman in full traditional Palestinian dress,
Just like my grandma wore, was crumpled to the floor, wailing loudly.
Help, said the flight service person. Talk to her. What is her
Problem? we told her the flight was going to be four hours late and she
Did this.

I put my arm around her and spoke to her haltingly.
Shu dow-a, shu- biduck habibti, stani stani schway, min fadlick,
Sho bit se-wee?

The minute she heard any words she knew—however poorly used—
She stopped crying.

She thought our flight had been canceled entirely.
She needed to be in El Paso for some major medical treatment the
Following day. I said no, no, we’re fine, you’ll get there, just late,

Who is picking you up? Let’s call him and tell him.
We called her son and I spoke with him in English.
I told him I would stay with his mother till we got on the plane and
Would ride next to her—Southwest.

She talked to him. Then we called her other sons just for the fun of it.

Then we called my dad and he and she spoke for a while in Arabic and
Found out of course they had ten shared friends.

Then I thought just for the heck of it why not call some Palestinian
Poets I know and let them chat with her. This all took up about 2 hours.

She was laughing a lot by then. Telling about her life. Answering
Questions.

She had pulled a sack of homemade mamool cookies—little powdered
Sugar crumbly mounds stuffed with dates and nuts—out of her bag—
And was offering them to all the women at the gate.

To my amazement, not a single woman declined one. It was like a
Sacrament. The traveler from Argentina, the traveler from California,
The lovely woman from Laredo—we were all covered with the same
Powdered sugar. And smiling. There are no better cookies.

And then the airline broke out the free beverages from huge coolers—
Non-alcoholic—and the two little girls for our flight, one African
American, one Mexican American—ran around serving us all apple juice
And lemonade and they were covered with powdered sugar too.

And I noticed my new best friend—by now we were holding hands—
Had a potted plant poking out of her bag, some medicinal thing,

With green furry leaves. Such an old country traveling tradition. Always
Carry a plant. Always stay rooted to somewhere.

And I looked around that gate of late and weary ones and thought,
This is the world I want to live in. The shared world.

Not a single person in this gate—once the crying of confusion stopped
—has seemed apprehensive about any other person.

They took the cookies. I wanted to hug all those other women too.
This can still happen anywhere.

Not everything is lost.
ceitfianna: (Tiwa playful)
My sleep schedule is off to a bad start this week, because I didn't give myself enough lead up to adjust after lots of sleeping this weekend. I think I'm still not fully healthy either, but my guess is that I won't be until I finish this year. Working at a school is tough on anyone's immune system and mine's never been the best. I know what I need to correct to take better care of myself, eating consistently and sticking with going to bed at a decent hour.

Last night, I was just silly as I started the newest Vorkosigan book over dinner and went oh yes. Ivan has always been one of my favorites, because I understand him and I love Tej and this book. I meant to sleep early but didn't want to wait until after work to read more, so stayed up reading then overslept. Bujold is one of those authors like Pratchett where I can't read just one chapter. Ivan is hitting all these feelings for me of figuring out your expectations versus others and holding onto happiness as well as making it for yourself. Also how key it is to define your life for yourself, that's a theme that runs through all the Vorkosigan books.

Then there was good RP and I ended up writing a fic for the Multifandom Women Comment ficathon: I don't look back. The Dark Knight Rises, Selina/Bruce, PG for violence. Later today I'll post it up on Ao3.

I'm lucky that my mornings are flexible and that people at work are understanding, I just hate starting off late. Tonight I plan on going to bed early and taking better care of myself as tomorrow is going to be long. I'm teaching research partly in French and have a meeting at the other campus. Next week is my school's Spirit Week, which I have no idea what to expect though yesterday did work for me. Then I get break, I'd really forgotten how broken apart a school's schedule can be. I was able to sort out a number of things that I had been fretting over and had a lot of good reactions, one negative that balanced out. I also discovered a great librarian group that makes me happy as I've been needing more ways to connect with librarians.
ceitfianna: (Yuletide Tumnus)
I'm using this icon because of Tumnus and snow not yuletide as it captures how I've felt this weekend, tucked at home as it snows outside. The snow will let up and then come back and sometimes be rain all this week, which has made it hard to find the energy to do much. The sun briefly came out on Friday, but other than that, its been cloudy. As I've also been fighting off feeling sick, I've slept a lot this weekend and realized I really needed it. I didn't work on Friday as I decided a day of rest would help me more than trying to push through the day. Going by just how much I've been sleeping, I think this was the right idea. I'm still a little tired today, but not as out of it as I felt last week.

Though on Friday, I did go out to a book club meeting from meetup.com that was wonderful. I think I've started to find my people in this area, even though I hadn't read the book, the conversation was wonderful. We talked about gaming, fantasy and all sorts of fascinating stuff. One of the people in group even knows one of my favorite teachers from Michigan. There was also an adorable and big black dog who decided he liked me and let me give him all sorts of scritches. I'm planning on using meetup to try and find a dance group as the combination of being social and active works well for me.

Since I stayed in yesterday due to the snow falling, I watched up to episode 10 of Capital Scandal and wow, all the feelings for that show. I love all of it, the depth of the characters, the beautiful setting and music and the humor that slips its way in.

Today I went out into the world and used the time to finish reading City of Dark Magic by Magnus Flyte, which is a book I wanted to like more than I did. Its a book that could easily be called a genre bender or crosser as it had fantasy, mystery and romance, sadly the balance wasn't always right in it. The two point of view characters were both a little too brilliant and the feel of the story would veer rather suddenly from alchemy and history to sex against statues. Its the kind of book that I would enjoy reading on a long plane or train ride where I could just sink into it and read it in one gulp, but reading it in stops and starts made me not enjoy it as much. As I would come out of it and be aware of how it didn't all fit together.

Life is going along steadily at work, I still feel like I'm out of some loops but I've got a chance to discuss my status report, which I hope will be helpful. Also I had an amazing connection with a new teacher that made me feel like I know what I'm doing. I know that I haven't spoken out as much as I need to and I'm going to work on that. They hired me because they think I can do this job and I am doing it and will keep improving. Also I have a chance to propose some classes for next year, which will get me more involved and be exciting. I finally have a Michigan license and this month paid off the last of my smaller loan from the University of Michigan, which is a great feeling. I have a break coming up in the third week of February, which I plan on going to Jackson and having some nice days of watching stuff. I also have a break in the first week of April and I'll be joining them for an opera in NYC on the fourth. If its possible, I would love to try and connect with anyone in New York for coffee or lunch or something. There's more flexibility in terms of going rather than leaving so Wednesday or Thursday. I miss you guys a lot and want to try and reconnect.

On Friday, FicFriday was interesting. I like this new way of giving prompts and then people have the option of deciding which character or world to write them for.
Twitter fiction )
ceitfianna: (lost in a library)
My meeting earlier has left me shaken but I feel more hopeful. One thing I love about this school is how even though all the complicated aspects of being part of the community as a librarian are tricky, I know I am.

Also I keep forgetting that I do sort of have a mentor or maybe just a great ally, either way I just had a good talk with a teacher about homerooms. This is the first teacher that contacted me about coming into her class and it feels like she's trying to keep an eye on me. She got where I was coming from that this is a key part of the school and I'm not sure how best to connect to it as a librarian. I got some good ideas about possibly pairing with homerooms for half the year since there are a range of homerooms. The issue for me is the library's for everyone, placing myself with just one homeroom feels odd to me. I'll find a solution.

She told me that the library feels more like a work space too and that its clear the kids respect me, I needed to hear that. Its good to know that is coming through, because one of the hardest parts of this job is getting across how the feel of the library has changed. I sometimes just want to invite teachers to come work in the library. Since I can write about periodicals and rules on gaming, but the fact that the kids see me as someone to ask for help is the change I'm proudest of.

The meeting this morning was rough but it got me going and to do some things I've been meaning to do. I will keep making things work with, but its okay to say this is hard as they haven't had a full time librarian for a while. This is new territory for everyone. My body is being weird as well because I got the hiccups, my eyes keep watering but sometimes I think they're tears, its hard to tell. Both of them have added to feeling a little out of it today.

Maybe tonight I'll go home and make sweet potato soup, that involves mashing lots of potatoes which is a good stress reliever. Then I'll have really tasty leftovers as well. I just have to get through the staff meeting first, they usually aren't too stressful.
ceitfianna: (Up end in sight)
I do really love my family but two days of sleeping on odd surfaces isn't fun while my shark week hits hard. Saturday was amazing as the day was spent with my brother and his family, they gave me a basket full of cooking oils, sauces, salts and dried things for my pantry. I'm going to have such fun cooking with all of them. Sunday we went to my father's first cousin's house in North Jersey which is small, was full of people I didn't know and my body went ugh, no. I had a nap, didn't eat much and just had an odd day. The best part of the party was that my father was talking up my Yuletide story to someone from his cousin's writing group, it was strange and wonderful.

Today we traveled back to Delaware and tonight a small group of people are coming over to eat, which should be nice. Tomorrow and later this week, there will be movies and lots of not doing a lot. I'm thinking about seeing Les Mis, taking my parents to see The Hobbit and maybe Wreck-it Ralph. Oh and [personal profile] muji, I'm emailing you as if there's space in your schedule I want to see you.

I finished Code Name Verity on the drive to my brother's place and I'm still in flailing mode about it. That's just a painful, beautiful book. My next two books are going to be Pratchett's and hopefully lighter, Dodger in an ebook and Snuff in paperback.

Oh and if anyone can guess my yuletide, I'll write you a story. I'm still working on various gift fics, but the offer's there. Some hints, it's been recced by someone on my circle, its over 3k and in a fandom I've never written for before.

Also signal boost: Aren't You Glad You Left Livejournal" Anniversary Fic Exchange/Festival/Creatathon! I hope to fill some of these in the coming week since there are some great prompts.

Before I descend into party prep and just not doing a lot, I thought I'd do the end of the year meme.

Looking back on 2012 )

It feels great to go into this new year knowing that I have a job and an apartment and am finding where I fit in a new place.
ceitfianna: (Tumnus)
At the moment there is a loaf of honey orange bread baking in my oven from a recipe in the New York Times' cookbook, almost all of my family presents are wrapped and I'm finally starting to accept that I have finished my first half year as a school librarian.

Today was a strange day, its one of those days that feels like it has many days in it, which is always a little odd. It began while it was still dark and lightly snowing, then the morning went by quickly in fifteen minute bursts with the students buzzing about with excitement for their secret Santas and various other stuff. The library felt wonderful and alive, then there was a holiday assembly.

What I love about this school is the assemblies are rather unplanned, anyone who wanted to perform just let the performing acts director know and then they could. There were kids playing music, doing comedy, singing and doing a forensic's skit, forensics is a type of judged performance. What was great was that middle school and high schoolers performed and everyone was clapped and cheered on. This school supports everyone, which is why I love it.

Then the school emptied because the afternoon was based around things done in homerooms. Some went out to lunch, some went to the movies, due to the weather, a lot of them watched movies and played video games and there was lots of food. I didn't interact with most of these but instead enjoyed a quiet library until at one point my supervisor went oh you haven't eaten, attach yourself to a homeroom. That didn't make sense to me just like inviting myself to the luncheon that ended up happening in the main office, I don't feel comfortable inviting myself. Its something that's been trained into me that you don't do but homerooms are how a lot of the social life of the school is built. Though whenever I've gone into a homeroom I've been very welcomed, so some of its in my head and being new. I will find my way in and some of that is going to involve talking to teachers and students to see if I can be a part of what they're doing as well as finding ways for the library to have a role in these sorts of not as structured days.

After school, my video gamers came back and were loud and rowdy and I kind of loved it. It makes me happy that even though they could just go home, they would rather be hanging out with friends in the library. Then I ventured into the blowing snow to buy dinner, which will provide food at the hotel tomorrow and fall over. Tonight there was a happy hour, a house warming and a sports event going on but I didn't have the energy for them.

Since I've been home and able to bake, talk to my parents and do some wrapping, I feel more rested. Its just been a long day and I think I reached the end of my socialness at school. This new job brings out interesting parts of me; the quiet observer who is learning the school, the extrovert who says see me and what I can do and the introvert who worries about pushing too hard. As this break progresses, I think I'm going to be able to realize more and more what I've done and can do, but for now I'm enjoying resting.

Tomorrow I set out for the east coast and will be there until the weekend of January 5th. Since my brother who lives in New Jersey is having Christmas with his wife's family, our family get together won't be until the weekend of New Year's. I'm thinking that possibly after that party, I might go catch Jersey transit and head to NYC, though only if people there have the space for me. Its been ages since I was in the City and I miss all the millimuns there. I also would love to connect with people in the Maryland area, which I wanted to do before new job whisked me away. Leave a comment or send me an email and we can plan. I've made it halfway through the year!

In terms of Yuletide, I finished mine last week and it turns out that I'm getting a Pinch Hit, which is nice. I was kind of worried when I didn't see a gift but not too much. It feels great to be hitting the road not having it hanging over me. I'm hoping that the drive will spur my brain on holiday prompts, which I'm still taking more here and hope to have them done by the New Year.

I have actually done some TwitterFics last week and this week, which I will post.
Two FicFridays )

My bread just beeped so I'm going to go check on it and then do some packing. The bread's a little dark but smells delicious, my oven is a good one. Far better than at my last apartment so I need to remember that.

Happy solstice!

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